Stay positive, but not for this one.

I remembered somewhere around this date last year, I wrote a post after I've exhausted all my lists to do while staying isolated in a room as I was a close contact to someone at work. Here I am fast forward one year later, I am tested positive with Covid-19. 

Confused. 

If you asked me what's my initial response would be. I am confused. Partly because I had my RTK done every other day since the first day of self isolation as a close contact. It was negative all the way, come to think I can't really tell that I was symptomatic or somewhere in the borderline. 

Symptoms. 

I  was lethargic, but I was thinking that was due to work and I haven't had a proper rest since the beginning of the year or the end of last year. But this time it felt extra. I mean I wasn't doing much but my body wasn't cooperating. I found myself browsing bekam angin or all other sorts of remedies to rejuvenate the body. 

I have slight sore throats and occasional chest pain. Occasional sharp pain on the head part too. I think growing up I've been either blessed/cursed that I rarely got super sick or perhaps its just my coping mechanism or cells related seems to be immuned. A blessing in disguise indeed. So I rarely had those migraines , sore throats or even fever. Its either they're hard on me or there's none. 

This time around they are all , vague. I am neither too sick or too well. One day I woke up and had slight sore throats , I thought it was due to the used 20,000 words average per day. I perhaps spoke 5000 words extra that day. Just when I felt funny with myself, I had my rtk test, via the nostrils swabbing because apparently I ate very well , as I was menstruating so I don't trust my saliva HA-HA. 

They turned out negative and I was meh, lets continue living. 

I can't do much while isolating , like usual. I was thinking about the people I put behind the bars, now that I am attached to a session court where imprisonment doesn't revolve around months anymore, they went up minimum of years in prison. Every time I felt the urge of complaining, I stopped and wonder just how blessed I am at the very moment. I can eat, I can play , I am having the room all by myself or sometimes with the cats invading the space. Couldn't ask for more and I deleted that whiny tweet, continued living , browsing boring Netflix lists and sleep again, as I was really tired. Of doing nothing apparently. 

But it seems like my very obvious symptom was , I peed less. I don't drink as much. 

When I was in Spain, I had a roadtrip with 9 friends and at every stop we made, or if we're stopping , me and this one friend by name of AA hehe will definitely made a toilet trip. It was so frequent that we call each other ASEOS FRIEND, aseos is toilet in spanish. Aseos friend is basically friends that went to toilet together, very frequent I must say. 

Mana taknya, lepas pergi toilet, minum bergelen air, lepastu nak pergi toilet, lepastu minum air bergelen  * me lecturing my memories.

Which means, I go to the toilet at 

every.single.opportunity. 

I sometimes got mad with myself for the urge to make countless of toilet trips. I am always super pissed with myself for that reason, I blabbed all the way to the toilet like WHY AGAIN YOU WENT TO THE TOILET ALREADY FEW MINUTES AGO. 

Strangely, while I am down with Covid, I don't do toilet trip that much. I was very jubilant if I can go outside the room just to pee as my radius of isolation is limited to my room and the toilet as I don't have one attached to my room. 

Going out of the room is the source of my happiness !!! 

But guess who doesn't feel the urge to frequently pee, ME !!! 

So I don't go out as much, I was clearly not happy. 

* I lied, I didn't even realise this until I was informed that my pcr tested positive HA HA

I remembered one day  I was sitting and looking at the water bottled that rolled to the edge of the bed, wondered the last time I drink anything... 

I don't drink much, I don't pee much. I only realised this when I was filling in the data for tested Positive people in the symptoms section. 

I lost count / track of the time. Yesterday I thought I was still in the evening setting , but it was nearly 11 pm at night. It was my seventh day of self isolation. I had my gelang pink and swabbed by KKM on the 10th. Received the news on the 13th morning, which was yesterday. Initially my colleague received the news 12th morning. Mine came in bit late, to which I thought, late news means good news which was clearly not the case. 

I had fill all the relevant information yesterday, some symptoms started to grow stronger yesterday, I was feeling feverish  (as Melaka people said as dedau ) , I had two solubles and I was feeling extra lethargic. My head hurts - my voice hoarse. My sisters room is very convenient with everything , there's toilet , there's perfumes, there's hair oil , there's oxymeter and extra sunlight as opposed to mine. 

Oh snap, the reason I am writing this down was initially to share some of the things I learnt to gather myself in this period of self isolation. 

Gathering yourself.

I unnecessarily shower more frequent than usual.

I am quickie when it comes to shower, but being in quarantine time, I took my time with shampooing , conditioning , washing my face and I spare some time analysing shower foams. I had those luxuries of time doing masking, oiling my hair, utilising perfumes my sister had in her room, to make sure I stayed fresh. Because being lethargic defeated me and I don't accept easy defeats HA-HA. 

I moved around in the limited space,  I sometimes looked outside the window , envying the birds flying in the sky. I haven't sleep with my cats for two days now. I am afraid I may pass the virus to them. I hope they would still recognise me after this period ends. 

I tried my best to drink a lot of plain water. Drinking water is not a problem for me but its apparent that now I drink less, its a struggle to keep my water intake good. 

Seek for support system. In my case I am blessed that I stayed home, my parents took a great care of me, especially with keeping me alive with foods and all sorts of traditional remedies. My siblings offered an extend length of supports too. I am surely very entertained with their hardly churned lame jokes. Though I love resting  * I mean who doesn't, a very long rest and not being able to stay occupied with work, makes me feel very lonely and clingy. I thanked AF for keeping up with my emotional need(y). 

Received thoughtful messages and tips from people who went through this , which I am very grateful for. Anyhow I must say that my symptoms are rather mild or categorised at Cat 1 or Cat 2A, occasionally breaching the borderline to 2B. It was still hard to tell. help.

I may not know how exactly these might be related, but I got my booster shot back in November last year. So anyone who's reading , who don't have much scientific knowledge, who relied upon testimonies as opposed to official researches, I'll encourage you to get boosted too. Getting vaccines doesn't make you immune per se as the virus alone is still developing and mutating itself, but I do believe that we are very responsible to keep the community safe, one of the way is to create a herd immunity. Herd needs a lot of people , one person taking it while ten others refusing doesn't help.

AND Another important note would be, 

Mysejahtera apps came really handy these days, make sure you update the assessment daily to check your Covid category, it's like having someone checking on you asking whether you're developing any symptoms. 

The symptoms you had can varied throughout the day, you can feel feverish in the day and later in the evening it was not there anymore , and your cough came and say hi, stayed in your throat for a moment. So tick accordingly ! 

Do it while you're awake and ready, my colleague did the assessment and ticked Rasa Nak Pitam as yes, the hospitals called them straight away. 

Keep your phone next to you, off those silent modes as there might be people from KKM calling to do contact tracing, or the robot calling to remind you , your health status.  I mean that's very sweet and thoughtful too, as we need humans to set those robots isn't it???!! 

I may be updating this from time to time, to share and to let you know, you will get through this! because many had assured me that I will get through this, I am sharing the same to you !

so, 

it goes without saying that you're positive but its hard to get yourself stays positive *mentally neither physically. 

the only positive we're all avoiding. 

this was taken a week back, its hard to say this but I miss working. but, I am taking this resting period positively. 

sekian. tqvm. HA-HA 

 Love, the'ann