A level

What Alevels taught me academically ?

June 30, 2014

Bunyi macam belum move on dengan kehidupan Alevels. What to do , the current life is like a normal life of an unemployed bachelor with no lover-alahai-pathethic-bunyinya. Haha. It revolves around the house chores - helping my brother with his endless karangan homework - paying the sleep debt and what so ever it is , I guess I am in a right track for enjoying such life.

The tittle earlier was What Alevels taught me? but eventually as I write , it turns out to be all academics and yeah , mehlah tukar tittle post. * as what you can see above there *

So I was thinking earlier what I've learn / what Alevels had taught me for the past two years which personally , two years had taught me like a lot . I mean without all the rules and regulations that restrict your doings - this post is about how Alevels mampu mengubah mentaliti seorang Anis Najwa. Kalau dua Anis Najwa taktahulah kan jadi apa #lawakhambarsangat #NiceTryNajwa

I take into accounts all the defects in my studies masa SPM dulu. Which basically 
  1. Mindset yang selalu kata itu ini susah like sebelum belajar addmath , mindset awal awal dah kata susah , even before I learn addmath , darn youuuu seniors ( wahaha salahkan senior kata addmath susah - which betullah dia susah tapi tapi  the mindset lagi susahkan Addmath )
  2. Stay up . Dulu hari hari tengok orang stay up which aku kira dengan stay up aku mampu score lebih bagus ( sebab orang lain stay up pastu dapat markah semua bagus gila ) - pastu end up ngantuk dalam kelas and you repeat the routine once again. ( but maybe its because we're restricted with the tight schedule , so staying up is one way to study * kot * )
  3. Laziness level . Bila tengok balik buku pastyears SPM , hidup segan tolonglah mati cecepat . I guess I only complete Sejarah and Addmath and lain semua bersih sebersihnya. Which dulu dialah * rujuk diri sendiri * ye ye mintak belikan pastu tak buat. Starlight diri sendiri please.  
  4. Procrastinator berjaya. I never utilized my prep time well which I knew if I truly utilized my prep time ( tak gosip - tak berjalan ke kelas orang - tak membuang masa ) , I could complete my homework and basically sleep earlier. 
  5. Niat . My goals everyday last time masa SPM is to score A's . Bukan sebab memang nak belajar , maybe because of that I feel that physics susah nak consume dalam kepala , itu ini susah , bahasa arab susah , semua susah * repeat susah for thousand times * - susah tak rasanya nak repeat beribu kali? haha. #hambarlagi. 
So Alevels taught me , 

  • Take academics matter seriously. 
Well ini serious. Lima tahun dekat Selandar never make me realized this , I mean kalau sedar pun , dia bukan kesedaran dari dalam jiwa - its merely because you're in debt with your parents who spent thousands for your life . Kadang tu sedar jugak bilamana orang asyik sebut nak 11A+ 11A+ , which I always wrote that everywhere tapi when I'm doing Alevels I do realize yang dulu sebut sebut nak straight A plus semua tu , usaha yang diusahakan tak sampai langsung tahap layak nak dapat . I learn things hard way , dapat 7A - pastu despite scoring lower than the others yang aku kira lagi deserve , it made me think that this is a miracle yang Allah bagi saat aku dah redha belajar mana mana pun sama , tapi Allah bagi jugak peluang untuk a sponsored study . 

If masa SPM , I'm taught to be a taker ( ambik semuaaaaa yang cikgu bagi and don't do other things by yourself ) here I'm taught to be a seeker ( kau nak , kau kena cari ) . Maybe its because of the reality now ( you have access to internet and technologies ) seeking for more infos on the website is kinda easier. 

  •  All the defects above - I mend it. 
All the mindset kata itu ini susah , masa mula mula masuk Alevels dulu , I told myself to clear my mind and accept everything with an open heart , everything in this world is hard , its how you yourself deal with it. And everything starts with your mindset , kalau mindset  awal awal kata susah , things get harder and it burdens you. It happened masa semester 2 masa kena ambik math , well this is like a special case where me dealing with numbers is never good like never good. So it kinda affect my mindset as well , which I tried for so many times that the mindset need to be changed. I tried , at some points I think that I success but when it comes to dealing with the reality , I kinda suck with numbers * as expected *

One thing that I practice through 2 years of Alevels , I don't favour staying up at night even during exam time. I do stay up for movies / studies if esoknya weekend / takde kelas / kelas lambat. But usually during weekdays , I'll go to bed at 11 . Even kalau tak ngantuk I'll make sure I hit the bed early and put aside all technology stuff which could make me awake. I don't practice sleeping after Asar so basically malam memang akan ngantuk dan tidur dengan bahagia. So as you sleep early , you have the tendency to wake up early - kadang sempat tahajjud - and do some morning read. Which I usually scan read any notes and least to do is to read my twitter timeline ( eyes exercises ) hahahahahaha. 

as a result , you can feel much more energetic for class and boleh fokus dengan baik. Tipulah kalau kata yang tak ngantuk langsung ( banyak banyak masa , masa belajar jugaklah selalu rasa ngantuk wahaha ) , banyak je kali ngantuk dalam kelas , and basically its my second and third semester. I like going to class early , sebab bas intec akan berhenti dekat luar and I can do morning walk to class . I take the opportunity to feel the morning breeze sambil acah acah nyanyi bersama burung haha. 

I lessen my procrastinating time by trying to complete assignments early. Well you cant avoid but to cheat sometimes but overtimes , I'll try my best to settle the assignments early. Despite doing all that , I still procrastinate gossip gossip dengan Awesome Nerds , keluar makan berjam jam lamanya but still you have your limits and try as much as possible to at least do some revisions before going to bed. Since I'm a social network - avid , to lessen the feeling of serba salah , selalunya , I'll open a note ( soft copy notes ) bukak sebelah tab twitter / anything related . By the time the timeline is boring ( which overtimes memang boring because I follow limited range of people ) I'll scroll down the notes . It may not sound effective but its an interactive creative way to learn haha. But seriously it helped. Lagi lagi bila baca notes before tidur , when you sleep , it kinda revolve around your head and nanti bila bangun pagi , overtimes I'll question one unclear terms that had been revolving inside your head and tadaaaa secara tidak langsung , you'll visit the note once again to reconfirm things. 

I see different study habits here in intec , which basically you see people who enjoy their life but at the same time , they're struggling really hard. Kalau dulu waktu sekolah , cheating during exams is kinda practiced , which I don't really favour that - kat sini , you know that what you do during your exams are solely because of your usaha and doa tawakkal pada Allah. Oh well tell me how to cheat all essay based papers heh? 

I guess the most significant thing that Alevels taught me is the niat. Niat belajar bukan sebab nak fly semata tapi sebab memang nak belajar.

Spread what you know. Teaching people something does not make you stupider , it makes you wiser. 

Well sometimes we kinda question ourselves , how you know that you're learning because you wanted to learn but not because you wanted to achieve something? I mean tipulah kan kalau kita belajar aimlessly takde hala tuju and at some points you do learn because you wanted all the straight A , with stars perhaps. Then I said , its all about the niat. Everyday before classes , while walking to the bus , I always tell myself , hari ni aku belajar sebab Allah , sebab aku memang nak belajar. Because I know how painful it is to forget all those things you've learnt for SPM. 

So memang sepanjang post ni I sounds like an academic nazi haha what to do , the whole idea of Alevels is academics for god sake. Jadi mainly I'm improving myself in terms penerimaan ilmu and how to assimilate it with your life. I'm not saying I successfully mend all the bad habits during SPM but I certainly improved myself I guess. Jadi sekarang , it hurt me / it annoys me / it trigger my anger mode is someone take academics matter so lightly . Because for you to stand in that position ( a degree position / a scholarship holder / able to seek for knowledge / getting privilege to seek for knowledge ) is something that you need to be grateful for. Sebab tak semua kat dunia ni Allah pilih untuk letak dalam jalan menuntut ilmu. Just don't take things for granted. Just no. Please.  

Though this may sound skema-gila-perempuan-ni-apa-hal. I kind of love the changes I've learnt through this journey and alhamdulillah for this route o Allah. 

The OKU and the mother.

June 27, 2014

Hello , I've been reviewing about the boy name Firdaus , who recently found by the Immigration in an anorexia condition in a very unpleasant room to stay. 

Being on the timeline 24/7 after Alevels end , this is something for me to ponder upon. So I waited couple of days to do a review regarding this. At least from a perspective of someone living in the society berlatar belakangkan Malaysia - I am not going to discuss this by comparing this thing with other country on how they solve such problem because certainly my knowledge was not that enough to do so . 

So I did read about the news - articles that support the mother - the news of how his mother tell how hard her life was - about how she don't know all the procedures. And okay , here before I move on , I would like to restate , I am viewing this as a part of society - who don't know the mother and the OKU personally - everything that I said , is from what I can see and how is my perspective towards the situation. Our judgement might differ according to the degree which aku - kenal - dia - lebih - dari - kau - so - kau -tak -layak- cakap -apa apa . 

Bare with the word ridiculous being used repetitively. 

I know its never fair to put the blame alone on the mom. But here, living with a monthly income of RM 1000++ , to leave a boy with disabilities , expecting him to do things by himself is ridiculous. I can never deny yang the mom might not have time to give extra care to the elder son - or certainly can't afford to have a nanny - leaving the boy inside an unpleasant room is ridiculous. I saw pictures on the timeline, seeing how the mother physically dress , an article saying that she couldn't afford to buy a shirt for the child , it doesn't make sense. Can someone just tell me how this thing could make sense? Maybe its me kot rigid pemikiran , tak menjangkau tahap bahawa to see the mum dress like that couldn't afford to provide a good shirt for the boy is just not right. With that small body , the boy can also fit the little brother's shirt. 

Saying that she does not know how to report about the matter? And she's a working woman. I may understand that she does not want to expose her personal life - or the thoughts yang mungkin dia taknak orang hidup untuk kesiankan dia , tapi if betul you can't afford to jaga the boy , can't you find a way then? You're working for god sake, you're not living unemployed , with no access to outside world to not know about this. But I believe the mom knows about zakat or everything , tapi untuk bersangka baik , the mom does not have sufficient ideas / knowledge regarding this. 

Someone might just say , kau pernah rasa ke jaga anak OKU? With that income? In that circumstences ? My answer is NO. Tapi nak tunggu semua manusia ada qualification ni je ke baru boleh bersuara? Okay whats with the comment from a single mom , with a lower income , raising more than two kids , even some with an OKU children. 

Mungkin definisi miskin gila bagi aku di Malaysia is when someone who don't have an access to the internet like you can always see in the BERSAMAMU , and it make sense to me if the mother is in an anorexia condition as well and living in the same room with the boy and having the same outfit as the boy . Sorry maybe our distinctions towards this is different , but if the mom is living in the same way like the boy did , then all these things make sense. 

Kita tak tolak persoalan seperti , mak mana tak sayang anak. Here I don't question about the mom's love towards the son. But as what I can see dari mata kasar , yang tak mengetahui selok belok kehidupan dia membesarkan dua anak dalam keadaan hidup yang sempit , kalau dua dua anak dia , dibiarkan dalam bilik tu , dan dijumpai dua dua dalam keadaan yang sama , that make sense to me that the mom is really living in a hard way raising her kids. Tapi as what I can see , the second child is living healthily , at least its to my eyes. So tell me , who don't speculate that the mom is being unfair towards their children when they see this? Weh even when my mom back up my little brother in an argument pun aku rasa dia unfair , apatah lagi tengok adik beradik lain being showered with physical blessings such as good clothes , and good food , with more money ( even sebenarnya kau dulu dapat equal treat like your other siblings get ) ? Heh. 

We don't really expect the whole society would try to understand the situation right? With all the irony situation?  

I did read through the facebook profile which claimed to be the mum , Puan Lola. 

At some points she did post about she being pity about an OKU child , which to me she's aware with it , which at least to me I know that she loves his son , cuma kadang tu , its like battling with the reality and the thoughts . Tapi by looking at the post. I know certainly she really love the child. Tapi ,

Maybe its never fair to judge a person based on his/her life on the social medias , because we're not living in their circumstances , however all the explanation were too vague - with the addition of the life portrayed by the mum and  the second child.

I guess I am just glad Allah make those officers to rescue this poor little boy. Moga Allah merahmati usaha kalian. To the boy , Malaysian send thousands of prayers and help to you , pay you a visit , I guess it must be a miracle to you , for having a chance to live and blessed with so many people. Tanda Allah redha dengan kehidupan awak di dunia dan insyaAllah di syurga. The mom must felt burdened with all this , maybe its time for her to reflect that even though she's living hard way , to let a child live that way its never fair towards him. Moga Allah juga memberi kekuatan dan ketabahan pada the mom.

 it's sad that everything is so irony in the reality.

PS :  At this point I am so glad that my parents took a great care of me and my siblings. I witness those days we're living in a small house with two rooms , 5 adik beradik kongsi satu bilik which stores thousand of books . Slowly ayah and ibu catching up the rhythm and now alhamdulillah . Despite signify hari hari sempit tu ( bila difikirkan balik , its kinda hard ) , never once I felt ibu ayah lepas tanggungjawab , we were blessed with love and care - makan cukup ,  meski tak mewah dengan permainan , pakai pun cantik. So there are many good things that we can reflect upon this , I am sure who're reading up till this point have a wealthy life I can say ( because you're living with an internet service , having an access to smartphones , laptop , or even walking to the cybercafe ) . Bersyukurlah :)

Thanks ayah ibu :* 

Finally an A Levels survivor !

June 23, 2014

Okay the tittle sounds like me battling with lions and tigers in the jungle and finally survived , alive. haha. Well not really , its just a tense battle between your motor skills , the knowledge and a piece of paper. 

Well basically this post will be a combination of pictures and some captions , all the way from 1st of July 2012 to 19th of June 2014. And basically its my posts - statuses from facebook , at this moment I would like to thank Mark Zuckerberg for having new inventions such as making timeline from the past years easily accessible - boleh lah nampak diri sendiri bertambah matang dari ejaan dax dax rempitzzzz kepada ejaan yang diterima manusia sejagat. Wahahahambar sangat diri ini sekarang . Lols. 

Now lets start.

I'm planning to get some of the details before I went to INTEC , which tak banyak dalam facebook , because I'm kinda ranting inside my blog. Ni zaman belum tukar url blog. Uhuks. 

exactly its not university but facebook doesn't seems to provide any preparatory college label. 

semester satu je rajin ambik gambar gambar macam ni. 

Habis dah semester 1. - more details would be the blog post , time interval July - November 2012.

Ni  motif dia nak tunjuk packing untuk semester 2 je. I guess masuk semester 4 dah takde gambar cemni T.T

Nampak sangat dah mengurangkan masa bersama media sosial , well semester 2 is kinda hectic to me . Because I have math and math is torturing my life literally. Though people might just judge me and say , ini semua alasan semata - well you can continue with the judgement I don't really care. 

But certainly , I am just not good with numbers , with math that need extra care - extra exercises , plus with my slow adaption towards statistic , plus the inside me were so rebellious towards numbers. I face a real downturn when I did tons and tons tons tons of exercises and still score Cacing kerawit , duniaku tiba tiba menjadi gelap gelita. haha

It was in semester 3 that I finally got a grip about myself , my current performances on my academics and I took a decision to drop math. ( my dad is a math teacher and certainly he probably don't favour my decision this time around ). How I drop those cosine and all ? It was during the Math / Statistic first class if I am not wrong - the moment I got my second semester's paper - I suddenly stood up and say I wanted to go out from the class and meet my program coordinator , Madam Lili. 

And that's it. I made a letter ehew. Siaaaaap. 

Well semester 3 sebenarnya banyak belajar benda benda baru macam went through IELTS , LNAT , university application from A - Z. 

Masa ni I still remember its crucial dealing with those , sebab the schedule is kinda mixing here and there , I doubt myself for thousand times , boleh ke lalu ni , boleh ke buat ni , I can cry all night after telling my mum - Akak penat. 

Tapi , no matter how I much I whine pun , still I need to go through the things , which satu je jadi source kekuatan , which is with Allah's will. And looking at where I am sitting now , meeting the end of June of 2014 , I can say I finally make it ( weeeeeeeeeeho )

Well the caption really tell huh. 

Jang jang janggggg ! Nak masuk semester 4 dah wee wee. Time ni macam percaya tak percaya , akhirnya berjumpa dengan semester akhir di intec. 

Did I cherish those valuable moment? Certainly I did. I guess. 

This was after trials I bet. Ye kot. Haha. Finally graduated. Intec's graduation is yet so simple and fast I can say . Still it's meaningful for me - though masa ni macam baru rehat hadap hectikus trial ( sebab bila tengok jadual two weeks paper hari hari ada , gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa rasanya )

So ni dah masuk fasa terakhir , usaha dua tahun bakal dihamburkan atas kertas. Well some of the papers ada yang macam tak sedap je rasa bila dah habis , tapi nak buek camno , redho ajelah. Haha sounds mak jemah. But to end with good feelings with my law paper 2, its kinda. Satisfying. 

13th of May - 19th of June. 

exactly gambar ni ambik before paper Law 2 , few hours before the paper. Wahahaha. Takde kerja nak patah balik blok Alevel semata mata nak ambik gambar ni pukul 7 malam. After 3 hours , 4.00 pm to 7.00 pm , not to mention the energy used from 8.00 am - finally Alevel melabuhkan tirainya , at least for me. Ehew. 

So here , I could include some pictures of my post Alevels activities. Some was before Alevels ends though. Haha. And some random photos. Not in order so yeah ( nampak sangat kan malas tu haha )

I made an album . Which chua bagi last few months. 

Random places in intec / akasia view from my room

legendary Cafe .  Kafe Alevel. With good ayam and good fried cendawan. Wonderful food. Certainly a good price :) and very mesra alam makcik makcik :)

kucing Alevel , my friend call him bobby but I prefer stokin. Hahaha tengok mukaaa malas nak layan. 

 though I may not want to sit for Alevels once again but I'll be missing this place. * Alevels square *

Intec library. 

my law lecturer , Madam Nad . She's been helping me through this path and thanks for the knowledge. A short thanks probably never be enough :')

my awwessssomeeeee nerds. Literally nerd. 

me with two aina :)

konon macam candid wakakaka

ini gaya perempuan 20 tahun yang pathethic. ic ic ic. 

Felai efem troopers. They really cheer us up after going through a noon police road block with the hot steaming taxi I swear that should be my last time there with taxi 

 The Seoul Garden. Probably the only reason why it must be Setia City Mall. Haha

my prits ajlaa on the ug floor. haha. But seriously the toilets make me dizzy with all the mirrors.

Aina Zamirah with her forever obsession for How to Train Your Dragon.

ni bukan sebab obses. Ni sebab nak gambar wahaha, introducing Nurul Nasuha.

Thank you girls. 

Aliatul Athirah with her foreverrrrrrrrrrr obsession for Cantonese movies. Dia nak Jay Chou pandang dia haha. Lols pakai letak je nama Jay Chou najwa luls.

the girls were tolerating our obsession for Remy Ishak ( me ) and Beto ( Ainaa ) 

Idk but toilet pictures are always the must. See this is by coincidence, both wearing polka dots shirt. haha

my sources of happiness :")

attempt to take good photo with the water show but certainly its veghy hard I tell you. 

Yeti versi Nasuha.

my clumsy best mate . Ainaa Mazelin. 

Can't you tell? Its me hahaha and I really bought that. Good price , post Alevel treat haha

So yeah. Habis dah Alevel. And truth to be told , its kinda awkward living after Alevels , dah takde apa nak study. Sounds poyo pehal minah ni , but yeah I am so serious. Kbye.