PENAT STUDY. a statement. a question.

Assalamualaikum. :)

I don't really write these days. Worrying that much on my A-level thingy atau ini hanya sekadar alasan. Ahaks. Jangan salahkan A-level jika twitter dan facebook priority pertama. Aicewah. Screw it. * I've reduced my tweeting and "facebook"ing activity ( yawninggg ) * 

So brothers sisters , Penat Ke Study?
* okay relaks dulu. Tutup buku. Baca.* <-- statement poyo ada reader :p

I've been wondering for whole day long. Seeing numerous of people goes up till their PhD, I was like, erghhh my A-level pun ala ala Titanic tunggu direndam di lautan Atlantik and HOW IN THIS WORLD THERE WERE PEOPLE DOING PhD O.O or even masters. Gahhh. Giving my great salutes to them who're currently pursuing studies even further. I hope through times, I'll say to my husband *ekekeke*  : " Najwa nak sambung Master laa " ameeen ameeeen. 

But then, trying to look this thing another way round. Sebenarnya bila dah a step further , from kindergarten-primary school-high school and to college, I realized that ilmu yang kita ada ni memang sikit sangat. Nak dibandingkan dengan ilmu Allah yang seluas lautan and even bigger up to infinities, ilmu manusia yang belum berdegree in lagilah cetek ataupun tak sampai setitis.  Nak nak masa tengah dalam kelas History. Seeing my lecturer with numerous of general knowledge , I was like STUNNED. HOW IN THIS WORLD HE GOT TO KNOW ALL-THESE-THING-TERMS. *tarik tudung orang sebelah* 

Dulu masa duduk Selandar, sebelas subjek tu dah rasa burden yang amat. Burden yang amat. Amat Amat. Hambik kau. Baru 11. Baru SEBELAS. Habis je SPM , ilmu semua hilang tah ke mana. Kalau tanya sesikit tu, adalah tinggal sikit cebisan ilmu Fizik. Ilmu Kimia. Itu pun tak mampu menjawab tatkala encik adik menyuakan soalan senang seperti : Apa itu ISOTOPE *jari digerakkan ke google search engine* . Masuk INTEC, first semester was like damn it great. Sebab takde Math. No numbers i need to deal with. Yeay. Semua subjek perlu membaca. And yeah I can sleep and read and sleep. And that wasn't how my second semester looks like. Now I am cursed. And " Hey Najwa, We Met Again " said Numbers T.T 

Penat study selama ini sebab sibuk kejar A. Kalau dulu angan angan dan usaha sekadar A- je dah okay. Doa lepas SPM tang nak tunggu result : Nak A+ , siap nak straight A pelasss lagi. 

Penat study selama ini sebab nak kejar pointer. Nak 4 flat. Yang Alevel-nya nak 15 points. Ghairah study sebab nak point tinggi, so bolehlah dabik dada mohon masuk Oxford. Konon nanti orang tanya , dulu belajar mana, kalau orang lain U biasa dekat UK, kata UK je, kalau dia duduk Oxford, Oh saya dulu belajar Oxford. Hmmm. Hmmm.Tak salah berimpian, malah digalakkan. Cuma tengok lorong niat :)

Penat study. Lelah menuntut ilmu sebab bukan Allah yang diletak di atas. Aku pun dulu macam tu. Tak pernah nak value kebesaran Allah masa menuntut ilmu. Tau yang proses biology semua macam magnificently organized, tapi tak pernah nak recite Subhanallah. Tak pernah bangun bangun pagi terus niat : Aku menuntut ilmu kerana Allah. Niat pepagi : Nak jumpa crush itu. Nak buat kerja ini. Nak tiru homework kawan sebelum kelas #ehhhh. 

Dulu aku selalu jugak merungut dan tengok orang merungut dekat status memasing  : Kenapa cuti kejap sangat. Taknak balik sekolah. Kenapa esok Isnin. Yeay esok Jumaat. And I personally think Its Not A Good Status to be written down : Sebab kata kata itu kan doa, kita illustrate apa yang kita fikir melalui penulisan, melalui kata kata. Kalau asyik update negetif je, susah kan? Perlu sejenak masa berfikir, yang tak semua orang dapat peluang untuk menuntut ilmu,yang diberikan tempat yang baik untuk belajar,  yang di berikan kelebihan untuk ada biasiswa, tak semua orang dapat peluang tu. Maka jadilah hamba yang bersyukur.

Kena HAPPY bila ALLAH PILIH KITA UNTUK MENUNTUT ILMU. Mengambil secebis ilmu Allah. Untuk membezakan darjat manusia disisi-Nya. 

Sebab dalam firman Allah dalam Surah Al-MujadalahAllah akan meninggikan orang yang beriman antara kamu dan orang yang diberikan ilmu pengetahuan beberapa darjat.(Surah Al-Mujadalah, ayat 11)

Lastly a very wise reminder from Imam Syafi'e: 


Marilah kita bersama bersungguh sungguh menuntut ilmu :)

HO-LI-DAY

Assalamualaikum and finally I am writing in the blog using the home internet. Where I don't really need to face super loading buffering etc .

And finally its a long holiday again.I consider it as long if it more than just half Friday-Saturday-Sunday . After the last Chinese New Year break. And its a new laptop by the way :) I've traded in the Grey Asus EEE-PC. Thanks for everything you've been gone through with me kelabu :") 

So I had trouble on what I am going to share inside the blog. My life is getting hectic. With workloads . With revisions. All these time, I've been wasting too much time I guess. Or delaying things that I wasn't supposed to delay. Like Math and Stats. Ni belum kira I abandoned Econs and English. If I couldn't bare the consequences of being dumb, I need to face the hardships of seeking knowledge.  Allah ease it for me. 

Been wondering on university admission. It should be this year. Using the second semester results. Tipu kalau aku rasa tak nak masuk Oxbridge : Neither Oxford or Cambridge. When I saw my law mates were pondering about this, I started to think, is it wrong for me to let go everything and let Allah decide. Its not that I don't care, but tell me what I can do? Is it just by worrying and questioning every single thing?

No I shouldn't . So I'll just let Allah to decide. To make me ready when the time approach.

Now everyone in the house is sleeping . I am alone writing this. 

To be truth. I am scared almost to everything. Fear of not performing in the second semester. Fear of not going to make it through. Fear to dissapoint people surround me. Fear for things that I can't express it into words. Allah. ease this :') 




INTEC EDUCATION COLLEGE :)

Assalamualaikum, out of the blue, suddenly I feel like writing something about INTEC. Previously before i entered INTEC, I've been googling about the accommodation , darjah ketersampaian ke tempat tempat sekeliling. But truthfully its hard to find that much about intec. So I'm going to brief a little bit about how the life INTEC would be like :) * with some pictures*

I have another a year to go. I am in my second semester. Hope that this will give some ideas on how INTEC looks like. The environment. Especially people who accidentally read this. Juniors that longing for overseas and seeking for colleges to make preparation, here I provide you some info :) Hope that it helps :) Pray for me too guys. 

* Edited - February 2015 ( alhamdulillah dah kat Cardiff , looking back at this post rasa macam najwa , worth your while leuls haha )

Hello guys , I know that many of you found my blog because seeking for intec punya information. Harapnya membantu insyaAllah , but I've been receiving like many question on how to get into intec?

so , jawapan to this question , I don't precisely know how . Why? sebab last time , I applied for Program Ijazah Luar Negara (PILN) under MARA dalam April 2012 macam tu. Then seeing how ignorant I was time tu , I applied for TESL and LAW ( because we're required to choose two ) sebab that's the only thing yang fit to my spm grades ( minimum requirement ) + masa tu memang rasa nak buat law ( walaupun takdelah yakin gila aku buat law , this is helped by doing job career quizzes , massive of them on the line ) and please don't ask how my 7A's got me there when there's no 7A's minimum requirement is not even in the requirement  sekarang , because policies changed like almost every year depending on your sponsor. ( plus I would always say , its rezeki dari Allah and ceqq sedara mara mak pak cucu cicit takde lagi takde siapa pun orang dalam ke takde , jadi its all rezeki Allah ) . And aku serious tak check pun kat mana pusat persediaan yang dia offer time tu , sebab masa mohon tu I wasn't really hoping sebab you know where you're standing kan. So selama menunggu sampailah interview habis sudah , I thought I'd be doing my alevels dekat KMS ( Kolej Mara Seremban ) bhahaha nehi I was wrong sebab the day result interview keluar : I'll be doing ( done Alevels dah weeweee ) at INTEC Education College. 

So point dia kat sini is that , I never know how to get into intec , sebab its all done by the sponsor and ku cuma ingat perlu mendaftarkan diri ke sana last July 2012 ku tidak ingat benda lain . That's it . Camtulah cerita dia. But what I know , you can try looking through Intec's website which would be genuine for you to apply privately , funded by parents ke , or any private scholarship yang suruh kau apply sendiri then dia bayar. You guys are like so lucky sebab sekarang the website dah macam up-to-date gak aaa so sebab tulah I said it genuine luls. hahah. And one more thing , I don't exactly know how sponsor boleh bertukar dari MARA ke JPA , all I know was tiba tiba JPA sponsor. Miahaha. Alhamdulillah :)

Okay back to the post. Maaf merepek banyak. 

Let me give you some ideas what is INTEC. Intec previously known as Pusat Pendidikan Persediaan ( Have a further reading here )  Basically,  we're doing preparation for degree in oversea's here as INTEC is one of the college that offered preparation thingy .  Thats what I am doing now. By the way, I am taking A-levels here. A level Law to be exact. I am sponsored by JPA. You can enter here with scholars or private ( parents paid for the fees ) 

First and for most, if you're a girl like me. Ahaks. Surely you'll be staying in Kolej Akasia. The chance to stay at Kolej Cemara with the boys , would not be that high but it based on your fate or I  call it, your luck. College for class is in Seksyen 17 , but kolej kediaman, We're at Seksyen 18 , surrounded by shops. So,there would be an easy  access to foods ( from mamak to fast foods ) , internet , photostats ( you can get various of books here , trust me you'll be amazed ), dobi, or even Mydin , Giant, Ole-Ole is here ( significant place ahaks ) . The curfew would be at 11.

* harus acknowledege yang my phone punya camera mega-pixel cuma 2.00 , the reality looks better :). Susunan gambar adalah tidak teratur * 



The room. 


toilet and the pantry. 

yang besar belakang tu, library :) 

fall in INTEC :P

boards and table for study.

Akasia :)


One of the good place to eat : PakLi.

Blok W :)


The library :)


Little idea about what a house in Akasia looks like : There's only 4 people will be staying in a house. There's a toilet, a pantry and also a place to dry you clothes. The highest floor should be the fifth floor. There would be two sofa's . Each of you would have a study table with your own board. A single bed. A locker. And as far as I'm concern for now, all the furniture is in PINK colours girls :) 

If you're thinking about sports, Akasia offered you court badminton dalam Dewan Akasia. Banyak open court. And there's a park situated not far from Akasia. You can just walk there. 

For College in Seksyen 17. Usually you'll be having your own class here where lecturers come to the class. Nothing much different from the school. There would be airconds and fans inside a class. 3 cafe's ( For this time being, I preferred Blok W's cafe. A-level cafe ) , if you wanted to know more, use the Google search engine well people :p . Everyday, to go to the college, there would be buses accommodate from 7 am  for the kolej kediaman.

Back to the Kolej Kediaman . 

If you wish to hang out during weekends. Or even weekdays : No worries people. There would be TAXI. BUS. And KTM not far from here. That KTM will linked you to many places you wish to go. I've been to MidValley ( the most often one ) ( This one by KTM ) , Sunway Piramid ( This one it could be by taxi , bus or even KTM ) , Setia City Mall ( This one by bus. But its quite far ) . The Mines ( by KTM ) . KLCC ( by KTM and LRT )  Trust me you'll be learning this here :) . Not to forget Ole Ole ( by legs ) Mydin and Giant too ( by legs ) ahaha :p

From my personal view : Intec is a very convenient place to study . In some other ways, its important to secure yourself because its a place that you  were exposed to everything. The environment here, I mean you can see bright people that read early in the morning inside the bus. Whenever you;re standing inside the bus, people who sit , will offered themselves to hold what you're holding on that time.  

Might be wrong somewhere.

Its been a while since I remember that I have a blog. Its been a while too I've been forgetting the existence of this blog. The thought of me forgetting this part of my life : My second semester would take the blame. Blame the second semester.

A friend of mine told me : You look different this semester. Like something burdening you. You look stress.

That makes me wonder. That obvious najwa? No I don't have anything to burden me. But if someone can see me , perceive me that way. Something might be wrong somewhere. Which I don't really know the somewhere.

Having good and bad time. Misunderstood. Friendships issue. Love issue maybe.  Second semester . So much drama. I am a pretty drama queen.
     

This girl is trying hard for her A-level. May Allah ease it 

Relationship Quotes :)



Well I guess these quotes were like really nice. So I decided to share it here. I am typically down these days. Trying to cheer myself up by reading quotes and motivations :)
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RELATIONSHIP QUOTES :)
This to help you keep things in perspective and move your relationships in a positive direction.
  1. In life you’ll realize there is a purpose for everyone you meet.  Some will test you, some will use you, and some will teach you.  But most importantly, some will bring out the best in you.
  2. Keep people in your life who truly love you, motivate you, encourage you, enhance you, and make you happy.  If you know people who do none of these things, let them go.
  3. Love is not about sex, going on fancy dates, or showing off.  It’s about being with a person who makes you happy in a way nobody else can.
  4. Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring – all of which have the potential to turn a life around.  
  5. The most beautiful thing is to see a person you love smiling.  And even more beautiful is knowing that you are the reason behind it.
  6. Choose your relationships wisely.  It’s better to be alone than to be in bad company.
  7. Being alone does not mean you are lonely, and being lonely does not meanyou are alone.
  8. Fall in love when you’re ready, not when you’re lonely.
  9. Love means giving someone the chance to hurt you, but trusting them not to.
  10. You know you’ve found true love when you catch yourself falling in love with the same person over and over again.
  11. Don’t wait for the right person to come into your life.  Rather, be the right person to come to someone’s life.
  12. The one who is meant for you encourages you to be your best, but still loves and accepts you at your worst.
  13. Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.
  14. Some relationships are like glass.  It’s better to leave it broken, than to hurt yourself more by trying to put it back together.
  15. Just because one person doesn’t seem to care for you, doesn’t mean you should forget about everyone else who does.
  16. Someone else doesn’t have to be wrong for you to be right.
  17. It is okay to be angry.  It is never okay to be cruel.
  18. Never do something permanently foolish just because you are temporarily upset.
  19. Silence is often the loudest cry.  Pay attention to those you care about.
  20. We don’t always need advice.  Sometimes all we need is a hand to hold, an ear to listen, and a heart to understand.
  21. It’s not so much what you say that counts, it’ how you make people feel.
  22. A silent hug means a thousand words to the unhappy heart.
  23. Don’t mess with someone’s feelings just because you’re unsure of yours.
  24. True happiness comes from within, not from someone else.  Don’t make the mistake of waiting on someone or something to come along and make you happy.
  25. Don’t choose the one who is beautiful to the world, choose the one who makes your world beautiful.
  26. If you feel like your ship is sinking, it might be a good time to throw out the stuff that’s been weighing it down.  Let go of people who bring you down, and surround yourself with those who bring out the best in you.
  27. Just because it didn’t last forever, doesn’t mean it wasn’t worth your while.
  28. Say what you mean and mean what you say.  Don’t expect others to read your mind, and don’t play games with their heads and hearts.  Don’t tell half-truths and expect people to trust you when the full truth comes out.  Half-truths are no better than lies.  And don’t ignore someone you care about, because lack of concern hurts more than angry words.
  29. Lies help no one in the long run.  So… 1) Don’t say “I love you” if you don’t mean it. 2) Don’t say “I understand” if you have no clue. 3) Don’t say “I’m sorry” if you’re not. 4) Be honest with yourself and your loved ones.
  30. Tell the truth, or eventually someone will tell it for you. 
  31. Good relationships don’t just happen; they take time, patience and two people who truly want to work to be together.
  32. Falling in love is not a choice.  To stay in love is.
  33. Love doesn’t hurt.  Lying, cheating and screwing with people’s feelings and emotions hurts.
  34. When it comes to relationships, remaining faithful is never an option but a priority.  Loyalty is everything.
  35. A great relationship is about two things: First, appreciating the similarities, and second, respecting the differences.
  36. Jealousy is the art of counting someone else blessings instead of your own.  Don’t waste your time on jealousy.  The only person you’re competing against is yourself.
  37. Do not become possessive.  The purpose of a relationship is to complement each other, grow together, and achieve your common goals as a couple.  At the same time, you must each maintain your individual identity as a human being.
  38. Don’t ever change just to impress someone.  Change because it makes you a better person and leads you to a better future.
  39. Give, but don’t allow yourself to be used.  Listen to others, but don’t lose your own voice.
  40. Don’t look for someone who will solve all your problems; look for someone who will face them with you.
  41. You don’t really need someone to complete you.  You only need someone to accept you completely.
  42. Speak when you are very angry, and you’ll make the best speech you’ll ever regret.
  43. Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness.  Let it go.
  44. As we grow up, we realize it becomes less important to have more friends and more important to have real ones.
  45. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick.  Your friends will.  Stay in touch.
  46. Respect is earned, honesty is appreciated, trust is gained, and loyalty is returned.
  47. Never waste a moment, it may be the last with someone you love.
  48. If you love someone, tell them.  Forget about the rules or the fear of looking ridiculous.  What is really ridiculous is passing up on an opportunity to tell someone that your heart is invested in them.
  49. Nobody gets through life without losing someone they love, someone they need, or something they thought was meant to be.  But it is these losses that make us stronger and eventually move us toward future opportunities.
  50. Never stop doing little things for others.  Sometimes those little things occupy the biggest part of their hearts.
  51. The best portion of your life will be the small, nameless moments you spend smiling with someone who matters to you.
  52. A real person is not perfect, and a perfect person is not real.
  53. To the world, you might be just one person.  But to one person, you might be the world.
  54. Just because you have a past with someone, doesn’t mean you should have a future with them.
  55. No relationship is a waste of time.  The wrong ones teach you the lessons that prepare you for the right ones.
  56. The first to apologize is the bravest.  The first to forgive is the strongest.  The first to move forward is the happiest.
  57. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.
  58. Characterize people by their actions and you will never be fooled by their words.
  59. When the pain of holding on is worse than the pain of letting go, it is time to let go.
  60. If a friend is in trouble, don’t bother them by asking if there is anything you can do.  Think of something appropriate and do it.
  61. Sometimes it is better to be kind than to be right.  We do not always need an intelligent mind that speaks, just a patient heart that listens.
  62. Be the friend that you want to have.
  63. There are times when family are like strangers, and strangers are like family.  Both sets of people are priceless.
  64. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation.  Don’t bring up the past.
  65. Instead of judging people by their past, stand by them and help repair their future.
  66. Don’t try to be everything to everyone.  Be everything to someone.
  67. Let us remember that we can’t force anyone to love us.  We can’t beg someone to stay when they want to leave and be with someone else.  This is what love is all about. However, the end of love is not the end of life.  It should be the beginning of understanding that love leaves for a reason, but never leaves without a lesson.
  68. When things fall apart, consider the possibility that life knocked it down on purpose.  Not to bully you, or to punish you, but to prompt you to build something that better suits your personality and your purpose.  Sometimes things fall apart so better things can fall together.  
  69. Everyone wants a perfect ending.  But over the years I’ve learned that some of the best poems don’t rhyme, and many great stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, or end.  Life is about not knowing, embracing change, and taking a moment and making the best of it without knowing what’s going to happen next.
  70. In human relationships, distance is not measured in miles but in affection.  Two people can be right next to each other, yet miles apart.  So stay in touch with those who truly matter to you.  Not because it’s convenient, but because they’re worth the extra effort.
  71. Never neglect the people who are most important to you simply because you think they will always be there.  Because one morning you might wake up and realize you lost the moon while counting the stars.
  72. True love isn’t about being inseparable; it’s about two people being true to each other even when they are separated.
  73. True friendship and true love do sustain the tests of distance and time.
  74. When someone gives you their time, they are giving you a portion of their life that they will never get back.  It’s one of the most precious gifts you can receive.  Don’t waste it.
  75. Good relationships are not just about the good times you share; they’re also about the obstacles you go through together, and the fact that you still say “I love you” in the end.

Lets fly in the air, Err err HAIRY potter :p

Hashtag : Randomness :)

My randomness go overboard. Affected by JPKCA's. Using Hashtag bagai. Now this is my randomness people :p

Discovered new hobby I guess despite main Little Big City. :p



I made three of these HambarGag but one file deleted. Sobsossssu. 

My We're Muslim Team. Sila spot muka paling eksaited :3


My randomness with Ainaa today :p Lols.

Menggapai Bintang :)

Hey assalamualaikum people. I just got back from a motivational camp for UPSR candidates of SK Kalumpang, Hulu Selangor. I mean like its obviously not me who're attending the camp as a participants, I am a TRENG TENG TENG TADAAAA A facilitator. Awwwwch so sweet. *cats eyes*  Well I consider this as a fast update ; hormones triggered me to do so.

Its a first program for us, the new bench line of JPKCA's . To be exact, JPKCA's is like the members that represent our kolej kediaman Cemara and Akasia, Intec. It was exactly a rushed plan as it supposed to be held earlier than 1st of March , but due to our schedule , we can't really make it into reality. So there you go, 1st of March, 22 or 25 if I am not mistaken of JPKCA's members heading to Hulu Selangor. And I don't really want to sounds like doing some sorts of reports here. Ehek ehek *include some fillers - fillers like seriously?* to reduce the formality. Again, ahaks :p

An hour journey , include dizziness finding the school , we finally arrived :) Yeayy the first impressions was not bad but seeing the kids was like overly excited waving hands and shouting Hyeeeeee from the second floor really drive my anxiousness to the highest level petala lapan. I haven't been handling these kinds of program ever since I leave high school which is two years ago.

We've been preparing ourselves to sleep in a class on the floor. Here we go, we slept in a kindergarten :) Yeay and on the floor. The first activity was held before Maghrib , the first LDK, I got PINK group which later happened to be We Are Muslim , which I don't really give that name because I let them to decide, I am there to guide. For me, it was like fascinating to have a group yang budak budak dia tawadhu' , very very knowledgeable for their age , and the most important part was I never got any heart attacks symptoms handling them. Ihik. Ihik.  Some of the group members called me Ustazah because the way I dress make them conclude it that way. Ahakzz. I am trying to be one, still in process insyaAllah.

That night, I've been appointed to conduct the Kuliah Maghrib and I guess yeah I got energized well by talking and yeaaaaaaah it works. Call me awkward. Mih mih. Its Cikgu Hassan's slot that night, Intec's HEP. Lenguhhhh pak anggg aku cakap kau. Sitting on the floor and tak payah cerita berapa banyak kali aku tukar position duduk. Grrr grr.  After done with everything, its time to have a good rest. Pukul 2 jugak kitaorang tidur, having chats between the members, packing presents for the kids. Personally , I really think that this is a very good start for us to keep the bond strong so it would be easier in future for us to do any work together. Best kot, tidur sepah sepah, masing masing muka survival redha je. Lagipun its just for night. Tidur atas lantai sepah sepah without proper comforter ke hapa, should be okay for leaders. Ehh. haha.

The second day seems to be that kind of packed. Early in the morning, we had qiam with the kids. Subuh. Kuliah Subuh. Morning exercise. Sukaneka. LDK 2. Treasure Hunt. LDK 3. LDK 4. Majlis penutup.

Maybe its because I write this post in different day, the spirits went away and i am lazy for this. I am grateful that I finally go to the camp. Despite what I plan ruined but there's always hikmah. To my group We Are Muslim. Kakak miss you guys already here. Hafizah, Nurin, Hajar, Azimah, Basyirah, Aini , Fitri, Hafiz, Ilyasa, Syafiq. Good luck. Its an unforgettable memory to conduct you guys. Good luck for your UPSR. Good luck with everything. Chase after your dreams adik adik. Nothing is impossible. Akak doakan. Its not the matter you guys read this or what, this is part of my prayer for you guys :')


Le groupmates :)