Spent last night pondering about the things I regretted for not trying to try , because  I got the insight of how difficult it could be , and rather to take up the challenges , I just don't try.

Thought that I'm brave enough , thought that I've tried so many little things , when I do so little. Sometimes I think I am too comfortable at my own pace , and it started with comparing with other people's pace. It might sounds not good since you know yourself better but you can't help it but to feel bad.

in fact ,

I've stopped trying for so many things ; I put too much consideration to it , I claimed that I am tired

when I didn't do much

perhaps I am no longer living in the fancy world
and I finally realized life is just hitting me hard.