Reasons I don't really write these days
I realized that I don't do much writing these days and I genuinely know the reason(s) why
Because though I think nothing goes wrong with my life - I know something is just not right. And by writing down the journals and reflecting over it, I felt threatened by how hypocrite I can be. How conflicted I can be on writing and what I've been battling with inside me. And it saddens me a lot too to be in this phase.
Good thing is that I'm adjusting better now with the current life. Previously I felt like the loneliest creature on earth , so tired dealing with workloads and studying at the same time, but now I know and started to realize some people had it worst.
I mean nothing is going wrong with my life, blessed with a job, was accepted into the employment sector a month (plus) after graduation considering the applications made after I'm back in Malaysia, able to breath , having a shelter and many other physical blessings - that I am able to witness and value.
But I'm failing each time now :(
Love, the'ann
Because though I think nothing goes wrong with my life - I know something is just not right. And by writing down the journals and reflecting over it, I felt threatened by how hypocrite I can be. How conflicted I can be on writing and what I've been battling with inside me. And it saddens me a lot too to be in this phase.
Good thing is that I'm adjusting better now with the current life. Previously I felt like the loneliest creature on earth , so tired dealing with workloads and studying at the same time, but now I know and started to realize some people had it worst.
I mean nothing is going wrong with my life, blessed with a job, was accepted into the employment sector a month (plus) after graduation considering the applications made after I'm back in Malaysia, able to breath , having a shelter and many other physical blessings - that I am able to witness and value.
But I'm failing each time now :(
Love, the'ann
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