Semalam scroll facebook nampak satu link ni , pasal 'mental healthiness' , one serious link , sebab selalu suka je buat kuiz facebook yang vaguely fettering people , for example ,
' Anda kelihatan seperti... Beyonce' urgh tipunya. Its Beyonce who looks like me. 😝 eheee.
Starting to admit that there's a clear boundary between your faith towards your belief and mental disorder. I am getting concerned because it shows ' Tidak normal ' for the majority score of 'sederhana' ,
how it feels like for those who're under the shadow of the black dog / depression and stuck in that room without figuring out a way out to that misery. May Allah ease those with whatever struggles they're facing right now.
And I was quite alhamdulillah lucky to still have control over my emotions. And fighting back the negative vibes. Sometimes I seems to assert the symptoms I am experiencing as simply laziness , ie laying on bed all day, not wanting to wake up , find no reasons to wake up and pro long the sleep.
The last question from the set of questions caught my eyes
' Find no reason to live anymore '
Ticked 'Tak pernah' because I am having abudance of reasons to stay alive insyaAllah. Haven't really sowed good deeds or much preparation for the hereafter. I have so many things ahead me , with Allah will insyaAllah.
For those who have control over their own state of emotion , be wary of excessive happiness nor sadness.
We can get through this insyaAllah !
InsyaAllah after few days home, its time to refresh the long lost thoughts , will be going to Sheffield for the rest of the week for Spring Camp and Mukhayyam Akhawat !
Its been a very tough ride for me , as a vice director cum secretary for the camp , I rarely up for JK's position since I see myself more like a bridge between the camp and the beneficiaries instead of the brick for the bridge itself.
I don't do many to be honest 😔 , very slow with overseeing stuff as a whole , sitting in a very comfort zone as a secretary * I enjoyed the secretary position more to be honest 😑 * , very very slow with the budget and hardly responded to many conversations , I had this one anxiety of seeing too many whatssap conversation hahaha 😅
that explains why I prefer people to contact me via email , even instagram is choking me. I just dislike the vibes it delivers.
anyway pray for me and for the rest of the team.
Sungguh insan insan ni dah berusaha sebaiknya , maka Allah selayaknya sebagai sebaik baik perancang. 🙆