I was actually trying to leave the past. Move forward. And yet still trying.
Nevertheless , I hate myself to be dragged a lot for future. You know people kept talking about early marriage , wondering how future undertakes : Berangan, siapa tak rasa seronok? Nak nak overshadowed by the novel thingy : Lelaki hensem, gentleman, melimpah ruah kasih sayang , future imam , and the list goes down. Voilaaaaa memang tak laaa kan.
You know I've been wondering one matter all this while. About girls updating status like : I want a guy *with this and this and this criteria* and I was like * jatuh rahang* . One day, bukankah jodoh yang telah ditetapkan tu accomplish us? By mean even tak satisfy list list lelaki idaman so bla bla. By mean You Don't Need To Order That Much. Adakah penangan Aku Terima Nikahnya?
Allah cakap : Do good, granted with someone good. An-Nur stated so. Tak percaya?
Women impure are for men impure, and men impure for women impure and women of purity are for men of purity, and men of purity are for women of purity: these are not affected by what people say: for them there is forgiveness, and a provision honourable.
( An-Nur : 26 )
Lagipun by doing the list : You're giving a huge stress to the guys. Handsome, gentleman and what so ever it is : ukuran dia ada kat tangan kita. You give out the list :
LELAKI IDAMAN SAYA
4. Mampu menjadi ayah kepada anak anak saya.
5. Mampu menjadi imam
6. K korang fikirlah apa list yang seterusnya . Pening nak fikir bebanyak.Kalau boleh memang nak sebijik dengan watak Adam ke, Tengku Syahran or other novel heroes *muntah hijau*
and this list vice versa to : PEREMPUAN IDAMAN SAYA. but I guess guys rarely do this. I can't provide any reason but I feel so.
Marriagement is something that you work it out together? Am I right or Am I right? So buat apa buat list list ni bagai. Not necessary . Lagipun too much criteria would led you insane . Serious said. Yaaa I know Human nak perfection. Ye dakk?
Memanglah : Kuasa Memilih Hak Kami ( I've been seeing this type of sentences everywhere lol ==' ) tapi uphold the faith la. Percaya dengan apa Allah janji. I am not saying you just need to let go everything. Tak berusaha. But yeahhhh. Susah nak cakap.
Moreover this kind of marriage thingy : I saw juniors. Lots of juniors making this. Kahwin bagai. Idaman idaman bagai. Ughhh kiddos , you haven't explore the world yet. You just see a small part of it. Aku admit, bila masuk higher institutions, you got to know lots of people with different life . When you feel that you need to secure yourself from the scary world . Bina kekuatan dalam perang nafsu berliku ( wallaaaaa aku sumpah rasa yang aku ambik Sastera Melayu time A-level ni ). And somehow you would feel yang : All those craps or cinta monyet bagai is a waste. Waste of time. WASTE i tell you.
And a part of menyesal jugak akan ada bila You Put Too Much of Meaningless Attention To Something You Don't Even Need to Give Any.
Okay tetiba rasa macam membebel panjang pulak pasal benda ni. So this a reminder I guess. For me , *obviously* For you guys if you guys mind reading. Thank you.