If this suffocating pain I’m experiencing now is the price I’m paying in pleasing You above all creations in this world ,
Let me go through this phase with Your guide and your mercies
You can do this Najwa , slowly but surely

Parts of me wanted to say hi , how are you doing , are you good , but major parts of me are gravely wounded that I tell myself , Najwa , acknowledge your pride and ego. Because for someone who never care , you cared so much . Enough means enough.  Do not dare to hurt yourself anymore for the same reason 

x, the'ann